THIS IS HOW I AM.

Gawd I feel like I'm slowly deteriorating. Literally.

I haven't been myself lately and I swear if I don't try to help myself.. I am seriously gonna lose it.

It hurts so much.

I know I've got to eat but everytime I try to.. I just stare at my food and slowly feel like I'm gonna throw up. I swear I need sleep but even if I'm tired as hell, I can't seem to get any decent sleep. I may close my eyes but my subconscious is so awake.

I think I'm really sick. Emotionally. And soon enough, physically.

It hurts so much.

Yep.. Got through the 6th month.

We've been talking a lot lately about our plans after graduation.. Not really a big deal. But it's kinda nice to have someone there with you planning it out, and knowing that you're part of his plans.

Anyways.. We'll cross the bridge when we get there. No need to hurry..

Oh and we watched Blade Trinity in Gateway. Man! I am definitely getting the OST of that kickass movie. Jessica Biel was kkeeeeewwllll!

Happy New Year y'all!

Decided to make a new blog for this year.. Blogs are good.. It's therapeutical.

Well, the past year has been good to me (I think..). Hehe..

I've learned a lot, once again. And I had a great time with my family in Kuwait. Still trying to get over with the homesickness but I'm pretty sure I'll be back to my own crazy self in no time. I just feel a bit weird that I don't have any family member around me.

Lots of shit happened last year that really fucked up a lot of people, not only in the Philippines but all over the goddamn world.

In a way, I learned that you really shouldn't take other people for granted because you dunno when they'll be gone or when you'll be gone. You might be in a beautiful island now having the time of your life when suddenly one big ass wave wipes you or your loved ones out. And you never even got the chance to say 'Sorry' or 'I love you' or 'Thank you'.. I mean.. That's fucked. I don't wanna die like that.

So believe it or not, I actually said 'I love you' to my older brother before I left for Phil. We don't really speak to each other in that kinduv mawkish way but I just thought he should know that I do love him even if he gets to my friggin' nerves most of the time.

Gawd I miss my family. And the food of course. :p

The first day of school didn't quite turn out the way I expected it to. I missed my first class cuz I was too dizzy to go to school so I just went on with my last two subjects. I went home feeling pretty good about myself because my prelim examination grades were terrific. I knew staying up late would pay off in the end.

Well.. Still trying to recover with the jetlag and all.. My eyes are all puffy from crying... I have to sleep this off.

Don't you just hate it when other people are so fuckin' inconsiderate when all you wanna do is try to get some decent sleep? You ask them nicely to shut the fuck up but

NOOOOOOOO!!!!

It's like they're deliberately trying to annoy you and bring out the bitch in you at 2AM.

So here I am. It's 4:30 AM and I'm still up just because an inconsinderate shitwad decided she wanted to come inside my room at 1:30AM and jump in to my bed, talk to some jerk over the phone and wait for me to turn into a bitch.

I can tell I am going to be very, very mean to whoever tries to piss me off today. I didn't get any sleep and I'm really tired.

I am once again off my rocker. So everybody just get the hell out of my way.